Confucius says “choose a job that you love and you'll never work a day in your life”. part II

I’m so sick of not doing anything very meaningful, I have a lot of ideas but don’t put them into practice. I had a little panicky moment yesterday about the future – what’s going to happen, how will I manage, will I be able to have the things I want?

At the moment we both live on Bri’s income. It pays the bills and rent and keeps us in food. I get a little money from my parents for food, just a little, not anything that would keep me if I didn’t have him to look after me ;) Having just one income Does mean it’s hard to save anything though, which is very important, for the future in general and those ‘rainy days’ that might come along.

What has prompted all this thinking and taking action is that someone I used to know from school added me on Facebook. I was looking through their profile and I got to a photo of her – massively pregnant, and a little girl with her in the photo. And I thought, “there’s another one of my contemporaries onto their second child”.

Quite a number of my old school friends and acquaintances are either engaged, married, pregnant, with one child or with several children. (my God, I’m only 24!! I still feel so young for any of this hehe!) I already know that isn’t the path for me. I don’t see the point of getting married (being together is the thing, and if it’s legal issues surely a Will or something like a prenuptial agreement would take care of that?) I’d only get ‘engaged’ for the free jewellery :o :O yes I really am that shallow tee hee. ACTUALLY what I’d really love is if he got me some Art Clay and a jewel to set, and I could make my own engagement ring!!

I’ve already established that I don’t want children, but I obviously want to do Something with my life, and have a lot of fun along the way. I remember that someone on my course dropped out to have a baby (by choice not accident), and I thought that was so empowered – to take your life in your hands and do what you want with it, even if people might think you’re doing the wrong thing or even crazy.

So I want to pretend that my dreams are my ‘baby’. A baby takes 9 months to grow, a long time but also quite a short term thing in the grand scheme of things. So I’m setting myself a goal. In 3 months time it’s Christmas. By then I’m going to have everything I need to start setting my plans in motion. I’ve ordered two Learn Direct courses on Business Start up and Growth. They have others too which I might also try. THEN in January I’ll have 9 months til September (a year from now), and by that time I want to be set up in business. Not necessarily successful yet, but established and on my way. I think that’s reasonable and achievable, and I’m going to do my best!!